caretaker…

so i consider myself to be a pretty strong, confident, self-aware, independent woman…and all i long for tonight is for someone to take care of me.  the past few months have taken their toll.  i am exhausted.  not physically…but emotionally, mentally and spiritually.  i now have more than double the responsibility, and I am missing my lighter half, my king of fun, the man who could...
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birthdays…

One of my favorite things Derek ever did for me, was around the second or third year we were married I was pretty low on my brother’s birthday (who passed away in 1999). Derek unexpectedly picked me up at work and took me to Nordstrom’s on Michigan Avenue. In his bigger than life fashion, Derek gathered all of the Nordstrom workers around him and told them that I was his wife, love...
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appreciation…

Appreciation.  It has been 5 months. 5 months to even begin to put into words my appreciation for the love and support that has been bestowed upon the Taatjes family, Ella, Johanna and myself. I still struggle putting words to my feelings, but I want to try.  I have starting writing this several times and the amount of appreciation I feel is hard to articulate.  In the initial moments of shock...
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a love for heels…

by Charity Carpenter Taatjes on Thursday, September 8, 2011 at 5:57pm A little confession…I love heels. They just make me feel…I don’t know something. I think they look great. As cute or stylish as some of my flats are, there is nothing like a heel. I know this is so silly since I am almost 6 feet tall and heels are not really mommy friendly, but I just love them. Funny thing due to the...
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time – healer or reality?

by Charity Carpenter Taatjes on Wednesday, September 7, 2011 at 11:15pm For several weeks I have been tossing around this idea of time.  We all know the saying that “time heals all wounds.”  And I do believe that time is a healer, but for me at this season time is not yet a healer.  To me each day that passes is a deeper understanding of the loss I have suffered.  My lows are...
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