Father’s Day…

Daily I pray for the girls that God would supernaturally heal their hearts from the hole and wound that is there from growing up without their dad. The hole is huge for any child without a father, but for them I specifically pray for the hole left because I know the father Derek was already and the dad he was going to be. Everyday I cling to the promise of Psalm 68:5, a father to the fatherless....
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Be present…


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Things I learned from my mom…

Things I learned from my mom… 1. How to love everyone…everyone. My mom constantly demonstrated that act of loving the unlovable. She showed no prejudice or favoritism. She opened her home, her time and her heart to everyone God put in her path…poor, rich, ugly, beautiful, unsophisticated, intelligent…everyone. She also told me daily before school, “don’t just...
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The triangle…

I miss the triangle. The one made by an arm connecting to a body. Some might call it the armpit, but it is that space above the armpit that provides that perfect resting place for someone else’s head. Waking up too early or the middle of the night. Wanting to crawl into that triangle, that little space filled with an abundance of safety, happiness, protection and...
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Passover…

Tomorrow it will be three years since Derek and Dylan went to be in the presence of God. This past year when I was studying the Torah with my bible study gals, we studied Exodus and the feast. In Exodus 12 and 13 as God is establishing Passover, an idea accord to me for what we would do with the anniversaries going forward. In alignment with my goal to not celebrate their deaths, but rather...
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The Greene family…

The Greene family… There are some people that come in your life and you just don’t know how to put into words or actions as to how grateful you are for them. A whole family that you watch and observe and your first thought probably is how can so much attractiveness exist in one family!!! But it is so much deeper. Your love for others and Christ exudes out of you. You are the true...
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A love letter…

You have been gone for nearly three years. And I still love you the same. Our love grew deeper with time. It weathered the storm. You loved me so well. You showed me Christ through your love. You empowered me to be the best version of who God created me to be. You would ask me what I loved most about you…the first thing that always came to my heart is that I loved the way you loved me. ...
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Three…

On Saturday! Dylan would be turning three. He would now be older than Johanna was when Derek and Dylan passed away. She turned three a month after they were gone. I feel this pressure building over the last few weeks of frustration. Moving from a season of contentment to frustration is hard to watch yourself step through…but it often a reality. I desire for my heart to stay in that...
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Contentment…

Contentment, this allusive thing that we as human’s seek often and often struggle finding. Regardless of people’s faith, family or cultural background, I have observed everyone seems to desire to be content and very rarely are content. We are jealous of others, want to find greener pastures or think the next achievement or thing is going to be the one that makes us happy. What is...
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Millersburg, Ohio…my heritage…

Some people tell stories about their imperfect childhoods. They tell tales of all that went wrong, hurts and pain that linger with them today. My childhood story couldn’t be further from these types of tales. It was pretty charmed. I grew up in small town in the rolling hills of Millersburg, Ohio. It is a beautiful town. The hills are stunning due to being the place where the glaciers...
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